Web prowl

Suddenly I became uncomfortable with the idea my parents are not going to be around in a week from now. Didn't feel like looking forward to the lonely time. Having them around made my life purposeful - I wanted them to be happier and feel better.. and I was trying to set an example or show examples.. definitely felt lot happier. Now, with them gone, I need to find that purpose or I am going to be lost.

I always knew I like doing stuff for others, having people around and meeting people gives a sense of normalcy or happiness to me. I feel more useful and that makes me feel better.

Ended up waking in the middle of the night and spent time browsing on the web. Found this very interesting/useful blog entry. http://www.justinkownacki.com/2010/04/12/my-own-11-little-secrets/

The ones that really hit the spot were..

Create Something You’re Responsible for Sustaining. Maybe it’s a business. Maybe it’s a work of art. Maybe it’s a child.

When you’re emotionally invested in something, you’re living a life that no one else has lived. That’s your story.

When something (or someone) relies on you for its very existence, that gives you a clearer perspective. Your choices now have consequences. You can be a hero every day. Embrace that, because it’s a responsibility not everyone has the opportunity (or the stomach) to enjoy.

Pretend Your Kids Are Watching. Imagine the idealized version of you, the way your kids think of you when they’re too young to realize that you’re just another flawed human being.

Now make the same choices that the idealized version of you would make. Isn’t it wonderful be to able to look up to yourself?

I and my friend have been talking about working with folks in coimbatore to start a mobile library for kids. Once my parents leave, that is going to be my mission - really looking forward to it.

I love kids - I really look forward to exploring stuff and showing the world to my kids. Started feeling, why do I need to put a hold on the same ?. I can start a sponsor/mentor relationship with few kids and start doing stuff with them.